This year has been a year a growth. There have been high moments and most certainly a fair share of lows as well, but what else would there be? As a 20-something year old, I should be experiencing life’s ups and downs and learning from them, and I am.
But I’m learning that every individual needs their source of rock, their “home base” or, shall we say, anchor.
Let me state that I was raised Roman Catholic. Baptized, first communion, CCD, catholic school, confirmation, all the bit. Yet, there was always something that did not make me feel connected, something about Catholicism that I felt was lacking what I needed or need. So I stretched myself further and further away from tradition, away from my previous anchor. So I began to latch in to other things, other people. I’d push so much energy and emotion into friends hoping they’d be the anchor I needed/need.
To be honest, I didn’t realize I did that until about ten minutes ago. I did realize that I have been missing something. Religion, faith, philosophy, theory, guide, blah-blah. Whatever you want to call it, I have most certainly felt the hole this year. I’m almost positive I had a mild case of depression for a few months during the school year, but I just accounted it to my lifestyle.
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